By Staci Taustine
Let’s face it….it has become relatively commonplace to talk about break-ups… people understand break ups.
Person A falls out of love with Person B or vice versa and the two parties agree to split---amicably, angrily, hostility, there are all sorts of combinations to describe how it all falls apart.
Then comes the heartbreak; defined clearly by Merriam Webster as crushing grief, anguish, or distress.
For some of us, it lasts a long time and likely extends proportionately the amount of time we invested in said relationship.
It is a feeling most of us have known at least once and can extend empathy around when someone we know is going through it.
We rush to comfort them. We bring over chocolate, take them out for cocktails and assure them we are there if they need us--- Afterfall, breakups are hard.
But what about when the break up isn’t with a person, but rather a workplace? Either because we have been fired or because we left? Much like person A and person B discussed earlier, there are so many ways that it can come to an end.
There could be budget cuts that leave us blind-sided,it could be a slow burn where they furlough us first and we hang on in hopes that they will take us back.it could be volatile and we sign a non-disclosure just so we can retreat safely from the place that caused us to cry ourselves to sleep every Sunday night dreading the Monday ahead. There might be other players involved, (like cheating) this is often especially insidious--ugly management, unscrupulous leadership, or harassment and exclusion. Toxicity takes so many forms.
Yet, what happens when we face this kind of break up? Where are the friends with chocolate and chick-flicks? Chances are good...they aren’t knocking. But Why?
Most often it is because we haven’t told them.
We are too ashamed, too broken, too disillusioned, and participating in self-blame. Why did it end like this? Could I have worked harder to fix things before they broke? Could I have taken feedback in better?
I am a fighter, a hard worker, I pride myself in my career and my professionalism even in the face of hardship.
We expect ourselves to shake it off, dust ourselves off, and get back out there...and most of the time our financial survival depends on it.
A layoff or unplanned exit often means we have x amount of time before our health coverage runs out, and if we don’t have savings it could mean we don’t know where our next rent/mortgage payment is coming from.
The pressure to act quickly is not imagined.
Still, the call to action and the way we feel are typically in conflict. We know we should just revise our resume and enlist our references but we may be less motivated and more tired than ever.
Why can’t we just snap out of it? Why does this hurt so bad?
When our exit is associated with a toxic boss there may be a great deal of hurt related to the implications of living in unhealthy circumstances. “Employees in toxic workplaces are more susceptible to chronic stress, depression, obesity, and anxiety, all of which contribute to a lowered immune system and make you more susceptible to developing physical ailments.”
“ The longer you stay, the longer it takes to recover. It can take up to 22 months to recover physically and emotionally from a toxic boss. Mental health professionals actually liken this situation to post-traumatic stress disorder and battered spouse syndrome. As with any psychological trauma or stress, the greater and longer the exposure, the longer it takes to recover.” (Harvard Business Review)
Most of us just don’t have that kind of time. So, we say instead, I’ve got this...I just need to shake it off...and get back out there! But, what is it that we are mourning? Why is it easier said than done?
Our workplace is oftentimes inextricably linked to our self-identity -- we connect our title with who we are as a person...Staci Taustine, Director of Learning and Development, Career Guide, Coach….who am I if I am not those things? Granted, we are whole people with, or without our title...but it doesn’t change how it feels.
You know the joke people make about who gets who in the divorce? The same thing applies here. When you break up with a workplace (however amicably) there is loss involved. According to a 2019 Friendships in the Workplace Survey by Mafy Abbajay, 30% or respondents said their greatest fear about making friends at work was that it hurts too much to lose a friendship after the job ends.
We build work families with those we spend more time with day in and day out than we do with our real loved ones. When a job ends we are suddenly thrust into a new way of living that does not include these people. Our thought partners, coffee buddies, and collaborators who brought us comfort, insights and a safe place to ask questions are suddenly gone. While many wonder, can’t you just call them? The reality is that in the absence of shared work experiences the relationship must evolve and it is the sheer change itself that causes us heartache.
As humans we ache for predictability- we want to know what the future holds. When we lose a job we find ourselves in the land of ambiguity. This is distressing and often disorients us. Suddenly we don’t drink our coffee at the same time, need to pack a lunch, or even commute the way we always have. What are we to do in the absence of these go-to moves.
We likely had dreams, plans, goals for what we would accomplish….ideas about how we might contribute to the new product launch or the way we might see the company through the next stage of growth. It’s hard to imagine things will go on without us, and even more difficult to